- My computer speakers packed it in.
- Two steps on the wooden staircase that leads to my flat collapsed.
- The railing on said staircase fell off.
- The adjustable strap on my favourite hat broke.
- The drawstring in my favourite pair of tracksuit pants snapped.
- And yesterday I broke my house key in the lock.
Yes, it has been a strange few days. Between chores, lesson plans, and my job I have been feeling the heat a little. Moreover, I have had to have some work done to my car. Car problems, and the mere thought that I might not have my own transport, is a big source of grief for me. This comfortable routine that I have constructed over the past few months would come crashing down around my ears. It gets worse. A couple of nights ago, during one of the colder evenings we have had here in Mexico, I had a dream. I was babysitting my friend's daughter, she caught cold and she died. Nightmares are unusual for me. Although I had the presence of mind to know I was dreaming it still left a sick feeling in my stomach.
Anyway, I know I am letting 'stuff' worry me and that I should make a decision to be peaceful and optimistic because, fuck, I am only going to get older if I wait for the world to change. People believe that their stuff - their career, their car, their house, their business, their toys - is what will make them secure, happy and peaceful. I used to believe that as well and I still depend on my things. However, the truth is that everything you own is something you have to take care of. Everything that you own is something you have to maintain and something that will, eventually, stop working.
I must stop this post if only because it is well past my bedtime. But, if you can bear it, here is a quote from The Gospel of Matthew. I am glad that as a Christian I have these words to fall back on:
“Therefore I say to you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or what you will drink; nor about your body, what you will put on. Is not life more than food and the body more than clothing?
Look at the birds of the air, for they neither sow nor reap nor gather into barns; yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not of more value than they?
...do not worry, saying, ‘What shall we eat?’ or ‘What shall we drink?’ or ‘What shall we wear?’
For after all these things the Gentiles seek. For your heavenly Father knows that you need all these things.
But seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all these things shall be added to you.
Do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will bring worries of its own. Sufficient for the day is its own trouble."
Matthew (7:25-26, 31-34)
9 comments:
Mr. Matthew seems a bit scattered there doesn't he? I do like the neat criticism of utilitarianism though: "Is not life more than food and the body more than clothing?"
Anyhow, I'm in sort of the same situation. Paying for all the stuff associated with my move has kinda sucked, and I've been overly conscious of how much money I have in the bank. If I think about it though, it's not that bad, and all of it is necessary so there isn't much I can do anyway. I should just get on with finding the kingdom of God and His righteousness, so to speak. And by that I mean rock music and girls.
Matthew Rocks!
I am confused by the concept of 'money in the bank'. How does one achieve such a thing?
Hard work, Nails! That's they key.
lolz. Um, I usually think not spending it is the best way.
Yeah, as we know, I just go into work and don't do anything... Hard work has very little to do with money.
OK, must remember to avoid sarcasm around you in future.
You do that.
Do I have to seperate you two?
You are worse than the kids I teach.
I think they should just make out.
Or have a cage match.
Either or.
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